More work BS

So .... ever since I decided that I needed to get out of my current position, I find that I have NO desire to even THINK of my job. The sad and scary thing? Not a BITE from my resume ... not even a nibble.

Here is the latest from the "most brilliant manager in the world" :

Background:
About a month ago, "the boss" came to me with this brilliant schedule he drew up on his nice pretty spreadsheet (and I mean PRETTY - colors and everything were included). He had decided that September we would have "financial fair" days. We would set up at most of our locations and drum up business through fliyers, bulletins, etc. Fine - except .....
He wanted me at my police stations from 6am till 10 am ... and 2pm till 6pm (to cover all shifts). I cannot do this. Day care doesn't even OPEN until 6:30 and it closes at 6. "The boss" said that he knew it would be hard for me, and that someone could cover for me, but "it wouldn't look very good for my performance review." (Yes - please notice those QUOTES!).
So ... I scrambled to call family and friends, and finally worked out dates for people to help me out and babysit, so that "the boss" would give me a glorious review. Every day in Spetember was booked solid with police visits ... and when I wasn't scheduled to be at a police station, he wanted me sitting at a firehouse from 10-4 (in the hope that local fire houses would come see me).
OK ....

Fast forward to last Thursday:
I sent "the boss" an email asking him about these fair days, because no one I was talking with seemed to know anything about them. He ignored me email. Late Thursday we were told that we had a mandatory conference call with "the boss."
So ... this is how "the boss" starts:
"I have not had time to let the City know about all of our dates for these fair days. SO I would like to reschedule everything for October."

WWWWWWW TTTTTTTT FFFFFFFFFF?!?!??!?!?!??!?!??!?!

So, since I am the ONLY one on our group that ever seems to have issues, and am the ONLY one that ever speaks up. I tell him that I cannot do that. That I have babysitters coming in from out of town to help and there is NO way I can reschedule.

So, "the boss" says, well, we will just get someone to cover for you.

My turn to throw HIM under the boss. I say:
"No. I don't think so. You told me that if I had someone cover for me, it would look bad on my review. And, I do not one anyone else in my territory, getting my business."

Some people finally speak up and say that we should just keep our originaly schedule, sans the firehouses .....

Whatever is all I have to say.

I .... really .... HATE .... my .... job ... and ... "the boss" .....

Must vent NOW

OK ... so I am either going to vent on here - or I am going to get fired - TODAY.

So .... I am in that office, as I mentioned before ... I hate it each and every time I am here. I feel like we all get treated like 10 year olds. Take your break at such and such a time, lunch at such and such .... except for the QUEEN of the office.

Myself and another girl are filling in for 2 people that are on vacation today. We both just got bitched out for not taking our breaks and lunches at the precise time we are alotted. She is supposed to go to lunch at 12:00 - me? 2:00 (yeah I know - WTF kind of lunch am I supposed to eat at 2:00???)

OK - so ... she leaves at 12:00 for lunch ... QUEEN decided she is going to take her break at 12:00 as well .... and that she will not accept any clients b/c she is BUSY ... than why the eff she she even here? I thought that was our job ..... so ... I sit here - taking all the mother effing phone calls, seeing all the walk-in clients AND getting freaking crap piled up on my desk by the boss who seems to think it is just fine to ignore her superiority and dump on teh rest of us....

I am so over this shit ... can you tell?

Good luck?

OK - so not only am I in the dreaded office today ... but I go on my break (yes, I have to take my alloted 15 minute break, right on schedule) ... walking to grab some more coffee ... and SPLAT. A mother-effing peigeon took a dump all over my shoulder.

WTF?????

I tried to clean everything off the best that I could .... I want to take a shower so incredibly bad. It smells ... bad. It was on my hair, my dress, my hands .... EEEWWWWW.

It remdins me of the day back in high school during Chemistry class that the bunson burner caught part of my well-hairsprayed hair and POOF ... I smelled like burned hair all day.

I am just so thoroughly groosed out. Everyone keeps telling me that this is supposed to be good luck ... for real? I would rather find a 4-leaf clover or pick a penny up .... it is much more sanitary!!!!!

Monday, Monday ...

The weekend is done already? Geesh ... another Monday is here. WooHoo! (Can you hear the elation in my voice?!?!!?)

The weekend was nice ... trying to curb my irritation with being Mommy sometimes. No Daddy + PMS + 5 month old + almost-3 year old = AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!

We took Big J for his 3 year pics on Saturday ... what a handsome little dude he is becomming (I will scan pics in tonight and post) ... all signs of my baby are pretty much gone. :(

This week is going to be crazy .... working and waiting for my parents to HOPEFULLY make it into town on Thyrsday (Hurricane Fay could put a damper on that one). Big J's birthday is on Friday and his party - the Cubs party he has been talking about for weeks is Saturday. I have grocery shopping to get to ASAP for his tacos (his request) .... I am excited for him.

Lttle j's Baptism is on Sunday - it is going to be a SMALL, understated ceremony ... since Daddy cannot make it, and his Godmother cannot make it .... Afterwards my Mom and Dad take Big J back with them for 2 weeks. While I know I am looking forward to a bit of a break from my little blue-eyed bug, I am going to miss my buddy terribly.

Will Work for .....

So - I think I have my resume to a decent enough status that I can start sending it out. I actually applied to 6 jobs this morning .....

I still think playing the lotto (and winning) would make me happier!

Nuts?

OK .... so follow me on this one it may get a little crazy .... I guess I just need to see if I am the only one who ever feels this way or if I am just goofy.

So, ever since I got into Facebook .... as stated in my earlier post, I have become addicted. For YEARS, I wondered what happened to so many of those people from my life and now I finally had the ability to find out! Well, some of the people that were huge parts of my life way back when are the ones that are no where to be found!!!!

Yesterday, I was on Google (sitting on the train on the way home from work - wasting time - Lord knows I don't have time to do this stuff when I am at home!) and I was entering some of those names. One old girlfriend from high school was there ... I clicked and saw her wedding pictures. Now ... here is the story:

Since I went to a private school, I had a few "groups" of friends. A group of friends from the local public school, my private school friends, work friends, etc, etc, etc.

I was friends with Sally (fake name - to protect all those involved) my Sophomore year of high school. We did EVERYTHING together, slumber parties, shopping, talking about boys. We were best friends.

My friends Jane and Ann were two other very close friends from the local high school ... we spent many nights looking for boys, hanging out and having fun.
I met my boyfriend my Junior year - he was that "first love" everyone always refers to. First EVERYTHING .... he was also part of my "public school" group of friends.

Slowly but surely, a lot of my "groups" ran together. Jane and Ann and Sally and I became a group of 4 that had great times together. My boyfriend was also always part of that mix. Sally even dated his friend ... we all went to Prom together.

My Senior year was a rough one. One week before my school Homecoming, my boyfriend broke up with me while he was away at college (he never gave me much of an explanation, he just kept telling me that I was going overboard), Jane and Ann and I drifted apart. Slowly Sally began to hang out with Jane and Ann without me and became distant and cold.

I developed other relationships and still enjoyed my Senior year. We found out we were moving to Florida in March so my second half of the year was spent having fun and making the most of my time. Ann and I talked and re-established our friendship, along with Jane ... but Sally and I still remained distant.

One day, about a month before I was moving, my ex called and we had a LONG heart to heart. I finally asked him why he had broken up with me. Why he claimed I had gone overboard.

Turns out, Sally had called him at school and told him that I spent my days telling everyone that he was coming home at Homecoming to propose, that he was going to transfer schools to be with me wherever I went, that I was being rude to my friends and turning into , basically, a bitch. Obviously, this was SO FAR from the truth. She had even been telling Ann and Jane lies about me, hence the distance that had come into our friendship as well.

Sally was confronted at lunch hour - it was quite embarrassing for her .... school became a horrible place for her ... the only friends she had left were Ann and Jane.

If I remember correctly, Sally and I tried to mend our friendship before I moved. It worked for a bit, but I could never quite forget her deceptiveness (she claimed she was trying to save me from getting me heart broken down the line) and her coldness never seemed to disappear.

Once I moved away, I lost touch with most people from high school ... while they all got to reconnect every Christmas and Summer break, I spent mine with new friends in Florida. I was always kind of broken hearted seeing my friends continue to bond while I was phased out of the picture ... especially since Sally had treated me so badly.

When I moved back to the Chicago area I got in touch with Ann .... we met for a night out one night and I found that all three of the girls had become "roomies" after college. That evening Ann and Jane and I reconnected, Sally spent most of the night giving me evil looks and making her life seem oh-so-great, and putting mine down.

Fast forward many years. I never got back in touch with any of those girls. I have often wondered where they ended up or what they were doing. (Same thing with the ex - but that is a different story)

So ... as I said, yesterday, I googled their names. I found Sally's wedding pictures. Good - glad she is happy. I guess the part that bothers me is this: Ann and Jane were both part of her wedding. Part of me felt a little sad .... I cannot explain why. Does that even make sense???? Not sad like - OMG I am going home to cry, but sad like, geesh, why can't I have friends that have been in my life for 20 years and would have been part of my special day. Those were my friends - and because of someone's cruelty, they didn't remain close.

I have GREAT friends these days .. wouldn't trade them in at all. I guess I just wish I could be one of those people that could say she has friends that have withstood the test of time ....

Am I nuts? Does ANY of this makes sense ... or did I just ramble on and on for the hell of it????? Oh well .... I have two great kids, wonderful friends and a life .... the past is teh past ... and believe me, I am not dwelling on this one! :)

Wordless Wednesday

It's About Time!

I almost forgot .... in my flurry to get ready this morning and off to day care on time, I stepped on the scale.

I FINALLY saw a LOWER number ... I lost 3 pounds! First drop I have seen since I brought the little dude home!!!

Woo Hoo!!!!

Cheking in and things

Wow - I didn't realize that it had been so long since I last posted anything! My life just keeps going faster and faster, but I really cannot tell how mnay MPH I truly go until I see the days on the calendar that have gone by!
My sister was in town two weekends ago ... we had a blast. Spent a lot of time at the pool, ate some good meals, went to a Cubs game, the Poison concert ... it flew by (what's new?)! I will post some pics soon!
I am preparing for Big J's big 3rd birthday celebration in two weeks ... I CANNOT believe I have a 3 year old. I still look at hime and see my baby boy who would cry when I put him in the car seat or would giggle when i played peek-a-boo. Now we are dealing with tantrums and the "ICanDoIts" .... :)
Little j is so close to sleeping through the night, I can feel it! Now if I could just remind him that he KNOWS how to roll over I could avoid running in there when he gets pissed that e is stuck on his stomach!!!!
E is STILL gone. Who knows what the hell is happening with that. I am to the point that I will wait until I see airline info for a flight home until I get excited. I hear rumors of late fall, early winter, early Spring .... I just sit back and keep plugging away.
Work explodes at the end of this month. Boss man STILL has no sympathy or concern for ANYTHING about me. My territory is set up for my failure (I sometimes think this is actually is doing) and I am tired of the snide comments about performance reviews, etc. I am SO OVER it.
I am almost done perfecting my resume and my next step is finding jobs and sending the sucker out .... I am STILL debating about playing the lotto every day ... maybe then I could TRULY do what I want to do ... NOTHIN!!!!!!

Wordless Wednesday