Season of Discontent

OK - we all know how much I hate my job. I seriously hate my job.

Lately though - it is getting worse. The boss - sucks ... honestly, he is a jag-bag. Totally a thoughtless ass-hole (pardon my French).

I wake up with absolutely NO motivation to get the job done .... which isn't good. I have to work. I need the paycheck. And, really, I am not a bad worker.

Wish the economy wasn't where it is ... finding a way out seems to be like trying to find the eye of a needle in the darkness!

Oh well .... I will continue to take the shit, play the game and pray for a way out.

35 candles . . .

One year older ... I don't feel it.

Sometimes I miss the big deal that birthdays were. You know, the parties, presents, UPS deliveries. Being the center of attention for a day or two.

I remember some of my favorite birthdays. My 13th - my first boy/girl party. My 16th - my surprise party. My 17th - a special night with my high school sweetheart. My 21st - wait. I don't remember that one ;)My 30th - another great surprise.

Instead of UPS trucks and parties, I got to sit in the office all day. But ... I got a slobbery kiss from Big J this morning ... and a smile from Little j.

We will celebrate tonight with Taco Tuesday.

Happy Birthday to me. ;)

Orwellian?

So ... the latest work scheme ... Now create a calendar within our lotus Notes (of course we don't use Outlook b/c we aren't normal like anyone else) ... a calendar so that anyone (ahem: the boss, the boss's boss, the boss's boss's boss...) can check on where we are, when, for how long, why .... A calendar ON TOP OF a weekly report we have to send in every Friday showing where we were, who we saw and what we did ... A calendar ON TOP OF the weekly report ON TOP OF the production report we have to send in every week to show what $ we brought in ...

The topper? We are already out of the field once a week while we sit in the office and take phone calls. We have been told by the boss that if our numbers aren't at 100% of goal (mine haven't been in over a year) that we shouldn't be taking a day to do any administration work, meaning, do it on your own time.

WTF? Yeah ... um ... no. MY time is precisely that ... MY TIME. I do not make 6 figures, no where even close. I have no desire or need to do anything outside of my work hours.

I hate my job.

What comes next ... show us what you do in between time? Um, how many times do you pee on company time?

How about cameras on our rear view mirrors to show how much work we get done while we are in the car?

Maybe GPS tracking devices on our computers (I wouldn't hesitate to think that this has already been done)?

Did I mention I hate my job?

Yummies

Saw this on a friend of a friend's board and it made me think ...

Here are 5 of my favorite store-bought/ boxed cookies:
1. Oreos
2. Girl Scout Samoas
3. Nutter Butters
4. Archway Sugar Cookies (they no longer make em :( )
5. Chips Ahoy Softbake Chocolate Chip

And while we are at it ...

5 of my favorite ice creams:
1. Edy's Girl Scout Samoa
2. Ben and Jerry's Cherry Gracia
3. Ben and Jerry's Cookie Dough
4. Edy's French Silk
5. Edy's Peanut Butter Cup

5 of my favorite salty snacks:
1. Cool Ranch Doritos
2. Sea Salt and Black Pepper Popcorn (Holy Crap - this is awesome stuff!)
3. Fritos
4. Sour Cream and Cheddar Ruffles
5. Archer Farms Maui Onion Potato Chips

5 of my favorite frozen items:
1. Lean Cuisine Chicken Ranch Flatbread Wrap
2. Lean Cuisine Roasted Vegetable Pizza
3. CPK Jerk Chicken Pizza
4. Krusteaz mini pancakes
5. Skinny Cow Ice Cream sandwiches

5 of my favorite cereals:
1. Grape Nuts Trail Mix
2. Golden Grahams
3. Multi-Grain Cheerios
4. Frosted Flakes
5. Cinnamon Toast Crunch

Hungry

OMG ... I have been hungry all day ... Not just "oh, drink some water and your hunger will disappear" hungry ... but the "what else can I pull out of the deep hidden corners of my pantry" hungry.

So helpful on my never ending quest to lose pounds (which, as of now, is still ZERO!) ....

Mommy is chunky ... still

Another day started, another day that I feel like I weigh 300 pounds. I can honestly tell you that I am starting to hit my breaking point with the battle this time.
I know in my life that my "battle" with weight will always be a "war." .... a constant situation that I have to deal with on an ongoing basis. I have been dealing with it since I was 8. Never obese - but always - fat. I have had my periods of "prettiness" - but, somehow I go through something in my life that ends those eras (ie, babies, college, etc). This time, I am starting to wonder ... WTF????
I am working out more than I have since before the baby .... I am watching what I eat, no food after dinner (that was/is one of my weaknesses), I am CONSTANTLY on the go... what more do I have to do?
The doctor did every test imaginable on me - tested my heart, blood, hormones ... all FINE. Not even BORDERLINE ... but FINE. So ... it isn't anything that I can "cure."
I KNOW that I don't have a steady workout routine at this moment, what single Mom does? But, come on. This is stupid.
The doctor did say to give it 3 months and then she would take another course of action ... well, that will bring me to April 1 .... if I STILL haven't lost a pound by then I am heading straight back there and figuring this shit out.
Seriously - am I doomed to be the fat Mom for the rest of my life?????